This should be the first day of my "new" life but one thing remains - a chat. I'm restless. I want to move on. Withdraw into my cocoon for awhile. Get over my regret for stupid things I've done and said. Resolve the grief I feel and pray for those I hurt. Get busy on the long overdue chores in the house. So let's either cancel this impending chat or get it over with. It isn't going to change anything. So why bother?